My last post was disgusting. How pathetic. It was true though. I am learning more and more how you have to work through the mental stuff. I was in a bad place. I realized that I needed some sort of success. I found my success and changed the way I was thinking. I knew I needed the smallest thing to feel good about. For me, that was just not feeling like a bog old piece of shit after my workout. I decided that I would be proud of myself. There you have it. Sounds simple right? Like something I have done for months? lol It pretty much is….
The mental struggles are the same. You just get better at what you are doing. Then, you raise your expectation of yourself. It’s really the same mental battle. YOU have to learn how to keep winning. “let your mind run your body, not your body run your mind” right?
Since my self-deprecating, I have done a mini tri at the gym. i swam 20 minutes, cycled 30 minutes and ran 20 minutes. On the run I was pretty beat. I had to walk some of it, but I felt great! It was my first tri experience. Granted it was in the gym and more time in between events, but it was cool. I was super proud of myself. I have also checked out some books and DVD’s from the library. I checked out P90X! It’s pretty damn cool. I am trying to work those work outs into my schedule. This is becoming a challenge, bc the better you get and want to create endurance, you need more time to exercise. Time is not my friend this semester. I have evening meetings EVERY NIGHT! It sucks. I am also job searching.
I was really stressed about the half marathon. I’m not now. I’m a little anxious, but I have decided to do what I can with where I am on that day. Worst case scenario I can walk a lot of it. I hope to record my longest run that day – along with the other 15,000 runners! 
It’s all about attitude folks!
I’ve lost weight and people are noticing! I LOVE IT! It’s more fun this way, meaning working toward a race and not a weight or size goal. That part is just happening and it’s nice.
I’m trying. It will be interesting to see what adventures are ahead!
