29
Dec
09

I cried like a little bitch

Update on last week:

Wednesday I went to BCV and  used the treadmill. I think I did like 2.5 miles. I really don’t remember at this point. Then I came home and did weights. I did several exercises from my body  and free weight cards.

Thursday, Friday and Saturday were fresh out of any real exercise.

On to the crying like a bitch.

I went to the hospital and thought I could do 4 miles. Each loop is a mile. There are some slight hills on the path. Well. I did 3 loops, but I could not do one entire loop without stopping to walk. WHY? I read this quote before I left about not letting your body run your mind, but yet make your mind run your body. It says that your body will give up every time. Mine did. I just don’t know how to get past this 3 miles barrier and on top of that I did not do 1 mile without stopping to walk. I can do 3 miles on the treadmill without stopping, but outside is kicking my ass.

When I finished I sat in the car and cried. Yes really, I cried. Why? Bc I have been running for a few months now and I can’t do more than 3 miles! What the Fu*#? Shouldnt I be able to do more? Is it REALLY all in my own head? Why couldn’t  I do a mile without walking?

I’m really scared of the half marathon. I never expected to run the whole thing, but I did think I would surprise myself with how much running I get in. Now, I feel like they might have to send out the car to pick my ass up off the ground!

I feel pretty discouraged right now.

Cried. Like a bitch.


3 Responses to “I cried like a little bitch”


  1. 1 newtriathlete
    December 30, 2009 at 11:51 pm

    Drawinghorse:

    I came across your blog as I am training also – for triathlon. I enjoyed reading your thoughts and review of your experience. I have been at it since September and am having a great time. In late August I couldn’t run to the end of my block – but now things have changed. I am working out with a training group and essentially do a sprint tri every Sunday morning. I’m glad to see others are striving to attain a goal also. I bought a book that had a great training schedule in it. It is by Eric Harr and the title is something like – Training for Triathlon in 6 weeks, 4 hours a week. Keep up the good work! When you cross that finish line – it will all be worth it. My blog is http://www.newtriathlete.wordpress.com

    MJP

  2. December 31, 2009 at 5:00 pm

    NO tears Angela. We’ll run some then trot some. In the end, we will both finish and toast ourselves a true feat! We will be ok. The goal is to finish, and all we have to do is put one foot in front of the other.

    See you soon and enjoy your New Years!

    E.


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