I cried like a little bitch

Update on last week:

Wednesday I went to BCV and  used the treadmill. I think I did like 2.5 miles. I really don’t remember at this point. Then I came home and did weights. I did several exercises from my body  and free weight cards.

Thursday, Friday and Saturday were fresh out of any real exercise.

On to the crying like a bitch.

I went to the hospital and thought I could do 4 miles. Each loop is a mile. There are some slight hills on the path. Well. I did 3 loops, but I could not do one entire loop without stopping to walk. WHY? I read this quote before I left about not letting your body run your mind, but yet make your mind run your body. It says that your body will give up every time. Mine did. I just don’t know how to get past this 3 miles barrier and on top of that I did not do 1 mile without stopping to walk. I can do 3 miles on the treadmill without stopping, but outside is kicking my ass.

When I finished I sat in the car and cried. Yes really, I cried. Why? Bc I have been running for a few months now and I can’t do more than 3 miles! What the Fu*#? Shouldnt I be able to do more? Is it REALLY all in my own head? Why couldn’t  I do a mile without walking?

I’m really scared of the half marathon. I never expected to run the whole thing, but I did think I would surprise myself with how much running I get in. Now, I feel like they might have to send out the car to pick my ass up off the ground!

I feel pretty discouraged right now.

Cried. Like a bitch.

I think the Vertigo is gone!

It’s been a tough week. CLosing the building and not working out has sucked. I finally thought I felt up to a run on Saturday, so Elisa and I were going to go and kinda ran out of time. We decided we would run to Jimmy Johns, eat and then run back. Well, she wound up riding her bike while I ran. I ran at a faster pace on the way there, and it felt pretty good. The distance is not very far though. the run back was a little different story. It was more uphill…lol….and I was pretty much beat when I got home. The vertigo made me very tired and that little run kicked my behind.

TODAY was a big day. Me and Elisa went out to the 5K route that Melissa showed me. Her running class went out there bc the coach had measured a true 5k distance. We got out there about noon and wound up doing about a 13 minute mile. It’s not fast and I had to stop and walk a few times, but we did it! She reminds me to credit, credit. Im pretty hard on myself so it’s good to have her positivity.

We stretched and sat outside talking for a bit, then we went home and made smoothies! They were yummy! She also made some migas(?). It was tortillas with eggs and cheese. They were pretty good.

I feel good about today. I don’t have electricity tomorrow, so I am not sure what will go down tomorrow in my world of exercising…I shall keep you posted!

Vertigo sucks

I have not worked out all week! I am not really counting my swim on wed. It’s driving me crazy, but I am so tired all of the time. I cant seem to get enough sleep. I hope this goes away soon!

I got a message from a  member of the Austin Runners Club inviting me to go run together sometime! yay!

ahh so proud, now not so much

I DID wind up working out on Sunday! I warmed up on the bike in the apartment gym. Then I did about 2 or 2.5 miles on the treadmill. Then, I did 2 minutes running at 5.0! That may not seem fast, but I usually do 4 – 4.2. I was very proud of myself. It’s hard to work out when you travel, so I did it!

This week has been all messed up. I have not worked out really at all! I woke up Monday morning kinda dizzy. It has gotten worse each day. I finally went to the doctor and she says I have vertigo. Basically I have little balls rolling around in my head and when they hit certain areas it tells my brain that I am laying down, which in reality I am standing up. This makes me lose my balance and causes dizziness. She said I am not to drive either. That sucks!

I DID go to the pool though!!! Natalie took me and Elisa to the rec to swim yesterday. She was trying to show us some basic stuff. Who knew it was so hard to breath and swim????  I kept getting water in my nose and mouth trying to swim! I think a swim cap is going to help, but I am going to need lots of practice!!!!

We swam for about 45 minutes, so I guess that was a good work out right? 

sweating in style

I drove to Houston on Friday evening with much motivation to work out over the weekend. I have not been good about exercising when I am away from home. I asked Amy if she would take me to the gym on Saturday morning. I knew that she liked to work out too, so we went!

We got up and left for the gym at 9 to make a spin class. I was nervous bc it has been a loooong time since I have done a spin class. They are TOUGH! You feel amazing when you finish though. We got there and the class had started  30 earlier. We had the times mixed up. So we decided to hit the cardio equipment.

I have to tell you about this gym. It’s a Lifetime Fitness Onyx grade. Apparently they have different levels of their gym. It was so nice! This place would make you want to get up and go workout. They had a really nice cafe, child care, salon, spa, rock wall, pool, and a really nice ladies locker room. I felt like I was in High Cotton!

Amy did the elliptical, bc her knees give her some trouble. I did the treadmill bc Im nervous about the good ole half marathon coming up real soon!  I did a 5 min warm up jog, stretched and then did 35 min on the hill work out. I put myself on level 2 bc I really did not know which level was what. I will have to say that I did pretty good. Towards the end I started bumping up the incline. I need work on my hill running. I quit at 2 miles, but I could have kept going.

The cool part is the fact that I did not feel tired or the need to quit at all in this work out. I dont know if I was distracted by the really cool gym, the fact that one of my favorite shows was playing on the tv ( The CLoser – thank you than you very much) or if I am getting better at this! Of course, I will assume I was distracted. lol

It was a good day at the gym.

Currently (Sunday) I am sitting on the couch with the dogs for now. I borrowed the pass to get into the apartment complex gym, but I am not feeling all too motivated right now. We will see. You never know what can happen!

tri training?

well….yesterday….Thursday, I went to the rec and warmed up on the treadmill for like 8 minutes, running and walking. I got off and stretched before starting the real deal cardio. Then I put it on a random/variety program and did a little over 2 miles. Once I was all good and sweaty, I did my body weight exercises. I thought I would be hard-core and go upstairs and run on the indoor track for a mile….uh…why do I fail the “Is Angela hard-core test” every time? lol

I made about half a mile, which turns into 4 laps on the indoor track. I sprinted the straight part and walked the turns. I don’t want to get into a habit of running on a treadmill and then DIE when I get outside, but it SUCKS outside right now!

Today…..I’m sore,  tired, and all fire alarmed OUT!  I did not go to the gym. I did decide that I would be more conscious of my activity today bc of it though. I walked to JCK and back. Then I walked to Evans, Frost Bank and back to San Jac. THen I walked to Tower and back. That is more walking than I normally do – AND there were hills involved.

I plan to stretch really good before I head to Houston tonight, maybe P90 X stretch. Since I will be out-of-town, I am going to really try to stay focused and work out while I am away. My friends Tim and Amy live in an apartment complex that has a little gym. I plan to use it while I am there.

WISH ME LUCK!

At this time I am concerned because:

I wonder if I am doing enough.

I feel like I am not getting stronger.

I still cannot do a push up, for real.

Im scared time is going to get away from me and I am going to be a big, weak, turd.

I still struggle with the half marathon bc I know I cant run it all the way and how much of an accomplishment is running versus walking it? Anyone can just walk, so why would I be proud of not running the whole thing? I guess it’s better than not doing any of it. I guess it means I can have some cheese fries that weekend????????????????? 

a late start but good finish

I slept till 8:30 today! Whew!! I could not get to sleep last night till like 2 am! I hate that! When I am trying to sleep I think to myself -”If I dont go to sleep RIGHT NOW, then I wont be able to get up and go to the gym at 7 bc I will be too tired! If I do not go to the gym, my whole day will not be the same…” Such pressure!

I decided that I would sleep a little later and get up and go to the rec. I got there about 9 and did a 5 minute walk on the treadmill. I stretched and then began an interval program on the treadmill. I set it on 4.2 for speed and started jogging. I think it was every 2 minutes it bumped me up to a level 3 incline for 2 minutes. I jogged most of the time. Around 2  miles or so I started walking on the flat level and jogging on the level 3 incline intervals.

I wanted to stop a few times, but I was watching E True hollywood story on Christina Aguilera! I kept going! lol

I ended up doing just under and hour with my cool down. I covered 3.4 miles! The machine said I burned a little over 300 calories! WooT!

I had planned on doing weights after, but it was late and I needed to get home and showered for my day. If I am feeling good after flute lessons, I just might rock some weights in my apt!

My swim suit came in! I love it! It’s a little tight, but Natalie says that it needs to be tight! I am not excited about how I look in it, but we are working on that! right? haha I bought it at swimoutlet.com. The tag on the suit says $62, but I paid less than $50 for it. I dont plan to buy another swim suit for years! I wont compete in it, but it was listed as a competition suit. Elisa said I should swim in my bike shorts and a sports bra!

 

not so much bad to my ass right now

On Friday I was feeling good about my craving for physical activity. I had planned to work out reeeaall good on Saturday. I can’t even remember what I did now, but I wound up going for a short run that evening. I was headed to the Rec when Josh aka 3.5 (% body fat that is) mentioned how much better of a work out I would get if I ran outside as opposed to running on a treadmill. Granted, I knew this, but he made me feel guilty for wanting to go to the rec. The weather was cold and kinda yucky, therefore I am more motivated to go to the rec. Instead, my lovely hall council president, Toni offered to go for a run with me. She plays rugby and is in good shape.

She took me for a run through campus from San Jac to Lantana and up the hill – then loop and up the hill AGAIN! We made our way to Jones Dining hall and then ran up the Tower parking garage. She made me sprint up the ramps. I almost died when we came out by Admissions and tried to get up the hill at San Jac. She was barely breaking a sweat, but I was about to die! I am not sure how far we ran or even how long, but it kicked my butt for sure. I am not good on hills at all. That is probably bc they scare me and I stay away from them – thinking I have plenty of time to work up to that….not really.

Sunday I was a lazy bum. I slept in and watched 3 Falalala Lifetime movies. I felt pretty bad on Sunday bc I was not proud of my physical activity over the past few days and have not been eating as well as I should be. You really are your worst enemy in all this. Staying positive and proud of yourself and knowing when to push yourself is tough.

Monday it was raining, so I got up and did my DVD that Sullivan checked out of the library for me. I told him to surprise me! It’s called Shaping up with weights for Dummies! It’s a light warm up and then 12 exercises with either free weights or body weight. You are expected to do 2 sets of 12 of each exercise. It was a good DVD, great for beginners. I felt challenged and I only used my 3 lb weights most of the time. It’s nice to know you could own a DVD like that and increase your weight and still get a good work out. I currently have 5 lb weights, so I liked using this DVD.

Today..Tuesday. I want to quit my job and go work out! lol…Seriously, I crave days off just so I can have all day to do whatever I want. It’s not just the normal, wanting time to do what you want, yet more the opportunity to do more physical things that maybe I dont have time for during the week. I want to ride my bike to Kyle. Since I have never done that, I want an entire afternoon to do it. I would like to go for a hike at a state park and take Lucky to have a picnic. You need alot of time for that. I worked till almost midnight last night and am being required to work till midnight tonight, therefore it REALLY THROWS off my schedule. I have to say it really really bothers me when I am not able to rest and work out. It changes my mood and makes me work harder to be positive. I know it’s partly bc I feel like I am running out of time. The half marathon is not far away and I am so far from being ready for that. Sigh….

Winter break will be here soon and I need a plan. I probably need to seek out some local gyms to use temporarily until the rec opens back up in January. I did meet with Jen today and we talked about getting together and doing some work outs! Im excited about that! She said she could help me learn to rock climb too. That would be really cool! i am hoping to take a break in the day and run over to the rec for some kind of cardio at least today, but we will see. I am pretty bad at working out if I dont do it early. Right now I am thinking about not following my weekly plan…that makes me feel bad, disappointed in myself.

Does this mean I am a bad ass? I think so

 I was on call last night and my slumber was disturbed several times, therefore I was exhausted when my alarm went off at 7am. I decided to stay in bed. My work out card said i had to run hills today. I decided I could just switch my card to a rest day and do my hills tomorrow.

I got up and got dressed, not feeling guilty bc I have flexibility in my schedule. Then I had a frustrating phone conversation with one of my student staff. I admit to officially being in a bad mood. So as my day has progressed I am feeling better with the help of Star Bucks white chocolate peppermint mocha – nonfat milk!

Here is how I am a bad ass. I am sticking with the thought that bc I did not work out today my body is freaking out and unhappy with me bc MY BODY WANTS to work out! THAT MEANS that I am a person who can be considered ACTIVE! I am not comfortable calling myself an athlete yet, but I am one step closer when my body is upset bc I did not work out!

week 3 day 4

I worked pretty much non stop until after 10 last night. I was really tired. I tried to go to bed, but I needed some wind down time. I finally got to be around midnight. I am learning that I really need 8 hours of sleep to feel really good. I know my diet is a big part of it too, I am still figuring all of that out as well.

I went to the rec and did an 8 minute walk warm up on the treadmill. Then I did a variety program on the bike for 10 minutes. It started out easy then jumped to level 6! Hollar! After that I did 5 minutes on the elliptical. That is HARD! Once I finished that I felt the need to get on the treadmilll again to get my legs to feeling normal again. I ran for a few minutes on the treadmil. I think it was 5 minutes.

Today was my body weight work. I went to the side part of the gym and did my 12 exercises. I still cannot do a real push up, but it seems my girly push ups might be a little better. I can’t really go all the way down on those yet though. that “T” stand thing sucks too! Once I finished my weight stuff I went to the treadmill to end with some cardio. I did 5 minutes and then I stretched!

I felt pretty good about today. I plan to sit and read the half marathon training plan that Colleen sent me tonight. I only got to see a little piece  of it yesterday.